Last night I checked into the hospital at about 6:30 or so and was bored about 5 minutes after Jacob left!! haha...I felt like a little kid having my first sleepover or going to school for the first time--I couldn't help but cry when he left. I'm just too social and active for this-I'm afriad I'll go crazy!!
My room is very nice though with a mini fridge and my own bathroom. I tossed and turned all night being someplace new and because I forgot my own pillow but I'm hoping all of that will start to go away as I get more comfortable here. The nurses have been very nice as well. Today I met with someone from social work as well...she informed me that she will be working with us throughout our time here making sure I am emotionally sound and hooking us up with whatever resources are available to us.
I'm not on complete bed rest yet either so that definitely helps. I'm able to get up and use the restroom, shower, or walk down to the kitchen to get a snack. Thats not enough to keep me entertained though.
One of the hardest things I'm dealing with today is knowing that Lexi is playing in her first soccer tournament of the season and I'm missing every moment! Jake has been really good about texting me updates and sending me video clips but it just doesn't compare.
We also got a call from our realtor last night to ask us if she could show our house today. It was good news however that meant my last day at home was spent getting the house in order for the showing--not exciting at all! haha...Hopefully whoever it is loves our house and buys it to make it all worth the while! Considering this is the first interest anyone has shown in our house so far its not likely but lets be optimistic!! :)
Jacob and I received a letter in the mail yesterday that took me back for a minute and made me remember that some people are not going to completely understand our situation nor will they approve of it. I will include the letter below just because I think it’s important to share the highs and lows of this entire journey!
Although I believe that everyone is entitled to their own opinion and my own personality is one that will confront people when I disagree with their actions I do feel it is equally as important to stand behind your beliefs and not say/send things anonymously like a coward. If there is something you believe so strongly in that it requires you to take a stand you should feel strongly enough to put your face and name behind that position.
Before I include the contents of the letter I want everyone to know that while it did upset me greatly to hear someone say the things they did I am not the type of person-nor is Jacob-to let something like this get us down. This will only motivate us further to do the best we can for each of these babies!
Contents of the letter: (sent anonymously without a return address)
"Let me get this straight...you wanted a baby so you implanted 5 embryos? Were you looking to have a litter? Now five babies are on the way, you have outgrown your house, and are looking for the public to feel sorry for your STUPIDITY and help you pay to raise these babies? For two people who are educators of young people, you’re both pretty dense! I’m sure you will end up on public assistance and we the taxpayers will be funding your outrageously huge family. What a sad situation for your older child to deal with also. May you should have thought about the fallout before you took the risk of having quintuplets! I hope your babies are born healthy, although the odds are against it. Thanks for taxing the healthcare system even more with your multi-million dollar upcoming births. When do you plan on declaring bankruptcy? I'll bet it’s not far off. You are both just another case of spoiled citizens wanting what they can't afford. Maybe Obamacare will help you out!"
It is clearly obvious that this person did not take the time to look into our story before spouting off about it. I want to make sure it is clear that we did NOT implant 5 embryos...I am not crazy--I know it is not ideal--I would never choose to put myself or the babies in the situation that we are in. We did go through fertility treatments and were aware of the increased risk of multiple births however just like anyone else who has ever taken a medication the possible side effects are worth the the end result when you want something badly enough.
We have never ASKED for anyone to buy anything or support us financially. Do we worry about the financial burden it will be--absolutely...are we grateful for all of the outreach we have received--absolutely...but never have we once felt entitled to the assistance. We have been approached several times about going on WIC and other types of government assistance however have turned it down. We don't want to use those support systems unless we absolutely have to. Jacob and I are both very hard working, proud people--we are not the type to mooch off of anyone or any system. I know that our closest friends and family already know that however I really felt I wanted and needed to address this issue just to clear up any misconceptions.
Lastly, we have been very open with Lexi about the details of this pregnancy. She knows there are health risks; she knows she will have responsibilities, and she knows it’s going to be hard work for all of us. She knows though that we will still always be there for her just like we were before the babies were born. It is not a sad situation for her at all—she gets to be the role model for 5 brothers and sisters. Jacob and I know there will be moments when she is frustrated or tired or jealous however those are life lessons that will prepare her for other moments in her future. She is a very mature and responsible young lady who I know will do nothing but rise to the occasion!
Lexi has been begging us to take her fishing for quite a while now so we finally got around to it today. She had a great time actually catching the fish but once it came to holding them, touching them, or getting them off the hook she wasn't too crazy about it! After a couple times of being forced to touch them she started to get better-haha. Even though the morning started off pretty rainy it ended up being a perfect day for it. Afterwards they rode the four wheeler around Jacob's parents for while. It'll be nice if we are ever able to get more property and be able to do some of these things at our own house! It'll be days like this that I miss next week when I'm stuck in my hospital room!!!
It's a little bit depressing when I think about only having less than a week left at home but on the otherhand it just means we are one step closer to finally getting to meet all 5 of our babies!!
It's hard to describe my emotions right now- I feel upset that I will be missing Lexis first day of school- especially because she is switching schools and going to buckeye this year. She says she isn't nervous but I'm nervous for her!
I'm sad-as crazy as it sounds- that I won't be there to start the year out with my students and get routine established.
I'm nervous about going on bed rest for the remainder of my pregnancy- nervous about how my health will progress, how early the babies will born, what complications we might be faced with, how long their recovery will be, how I will handle everything emotionally, and on and on!!
Most of all though I am anxious-anxious for them to get here and fall even more in love with them!!
Today, Kathy Rhoades, Jacob and I met at the BEAT to record an interview about the babies and the diaper drive. I've attached the link to the written article (Kudos to Allison Rhoades for doing such a great job) and will upload the video once it is ready. Thank you to Kathy for organizing the diaper drive and the BEAT for getting our story out into the community!! Click on the image below to be taken to the article; you will need to scroll down to the third story on the page.
Today we spent most of the morning re-arranging furntiture in the upstairs bedrooms trying to find a way to make everything fit. Buddy came over and helped Jake put the second crib together Thursday evening. Jake got the dresser assembled yesterday and I filled it today with the newborn/preemie clothes that we have. We knew we wouldn't have enough space to put the other rocking chair in the baby room so we spent a large amount of time in our own bedroom rearranging things in order to create a sitting space. We ended up bringing the recliner from the basement up into our room as well--overall I think it is starting to come together pretty nicely. We still need to mount the TV on the opposite wall in our bedroom, assemble 3 more cribs (once they arrive), and and get the other dresser put together and filled but progress is at least being made! We also stashed all the diapers we have received/bought so far under the bed and in the linen closet. We are quickly running out of space
I think I've definetly left the cute pregnant stage-haha....when I look at myself now my belly hangs well over my pants and even maternity shirts are too short!! I knew it would get to a point where I would be ridiculously huge and I think I've entered the beginning of that point. I can only imagine what the 30 week picture will look like!! I know several people have had difficulties finding those pics--you have to double click on appointment updates instead of choosing from a dropdown option.
My appointment is at 3:00 tomorrow with Dr. Shah so fingers crossed for one more week at home!!
Well, I've made it six days farther than the doctor said I would at home so I should be happy however I'm still hoping for another week at home. I'm getting very nervous for our appointment on Wednesday--just hoping he doesn't put me on bedrest right then and there! If nothing else I was able to get in my greenbook hours for school and will also get my hours in to receive the $300 stipend for working in our classrooms.
I will post pictures of the baby room in just a few minutes as well--its pretty much a disaster as we try to sort clothes and assemble furniture but one crib is together!!! We are just waiting for the rest of the furniture that we ordered earlier this week to come in so we can put the clothes away and start to get things organized. Hard to believe that the babies could be born in as soon as two months! I'm ready for them to be out of my belly for sure but I bet I won't be saying that when they are all crying at once!! haha This pregnancy has definetly been challenging emotionally, physically, and mentally so maybe that will be made up for by having five very easy, laid back babies!!!???!!!
Thank You soooo much to Amy Harwood and everyone who helped her give us a great shower today!! It was wonderful to get to see everyone since I won't have the opportunity to catch up when school starts. Jacob and I are both very grateful for not only the generosity of our co-workers and students today but also the overwhelming support they have all given us. We both have always thought of Brunswick as a great district to be involved in but its times like this when you realize just how selfless and thoutful people really are.
**If anyone has pictures from the shower I would love it if you could email them to me so i can post them
See these pictures larger on the page titled Looking Back.