I thought the only emotions I would feel would be positive when I finally got to go home after being in the hospital for almost 8 weeks but the moment was bittersweet. Just feeling fresh air made me smile and I loved being back home with Jacob and getting to be a mom to Lexi again but I couldn't help but feel I left a huge part of myself back at the hospital. It is definitely a challenge to not be right down the hall from everyone and not be able to take a short walk to go see them when I miss them. I never worry that they are not being taken care of because the staff they have in the NICU is phenominal but I do feel like I'm missing out on the time I used to get to spend with them. I told everyone I just wanted to fast forward to delivering and being home but now I want to fast forward to THEM being home!!! I have never been on an emotional rollercoaster quite like this one!
Below are some more recent pictures of them--How could you not want to spend every minute you had with them??? We are still waiting to be able to hold Giovanni and Jade...cotinue to pray that they gain the strength needed to continue progressing so that we can share the skin-to-skin connection with them too!
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Pam
10/13/2012 12:51:29 am
Le, these pictures are just so touching! You all have been through quite an unusual journey the past 8 months and probably will continue for a while. Just know that there are lots of people out there thinking and praying for all of you as you go through all the changes that are still upcoming. Special prayers for Jade and Giovanni. Meanwhile, keep going one day at a time!
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Sarah
10/13/2012 01:19:52 am
Leann, I know exactly what you are talking about. You want to get home so that you can get back to being a mom, but you are so torn between being at home with with Lexi and being at the hospital with the others. For me it was, three at home, and one in the NICU. It is an emotional rollercoaster. Just try to remember it's a marathon and not a sprint. It sounds like you have quite the support team. Let them help you out as much as possible. It will be so sweat for you when you are able to have all your kiddos at home with you. Hang in there. Jesus will give you enought strength for each day! Love the pictures. :)
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aunt janet
10/13/2012 01:34:57 am
love the new pix. cant believe jacob is a daddy to so many and looks so natural holding them!!! I will keep the prayers going for the whole family. i think you will all need to be strong to get through these next few days, weeks, months, maybe years (you know my boys didnt move out till they were 30)!!!!! lots of love
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Debbie
10/13/2012 08:04:25 am
Love these pictures. I am certain it is painful to be away from those babies but just remember that they are being well cared for. Don't beat yourself about it. I prayer for you and the babies and pray that your little Giovanni and Jade grow stronger so they too can feel your tremendous love. Stay strong, know that "strangers" care too!
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Kasie weeded/ Gilles
10/13/2012 11:36:18 am
Best wishes! I glad you all are well! How wonderfull! Kasie
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Megan Wolf
10/13/2012 11:43:49 am
I love them! They are already AMAZING, just like you and Jake as mommy and daddy! Time will continue to fly by and they'll all be home before you know it.
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Diane
10/13/2012 03:36:42 pm
Congratulations on your babies!! I am a quint mama, too, and absolutely know what you're going through. I wanted to clone myself!! :) I am praying for your family as you adjust to your new wonderful life. Take Care, Diane
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Bridget
10/14/2012 12:18:34 am
I know exactly how you feel. In hindsight, I know I should have just enjoyed that time to give my older son some attention and not worry so much about not being with the babies. I hope you try to. But I don't think it's possible :)
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Leann Alferio
10/15/2012 02:24:46 pm
Thank you... It's good to know it can be done :) at least I know with all the running time will fly by and they'll be home before we know it!
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Leann Alferio
10/15/2012 02:26:01 pm
Thank you!! Great to hear from you as well! I would love to see and hear updates about your family... My parents keep me somewhat filled in.
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Leann Alferio
10/15/2012 02:26:56 pm
Thank you Debbie-you continue to be such a great positive support system for us on here!
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Leann Alferio
10/15/2012 02:27:39 pm
Thanks!! Tell eliana we are ready for her next visit
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Leann Alferio
10/15/2012 02:28:47 pm
Haha...thank you! Hope you get to meet them soon!
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Leann Alferio
10/15/2012 02:29:54 pm
Thank you for being there for us through all of this... And for the applesauce too:)
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