I thought the only emotions I would feel would be positive when I finally got to go home after being in the hospital for almost 8 weeks but the moment was bittersweet. Just feeling fresh air made me smile and I loved being back home with Jacob and getting to be a mom to Lexi again but I couldn't help but feel I left a huge part of myself back at the hospital. It is definitely a challenge to not be right down the hall from everyone and not be able to take a short walk to go see them when I miss them. I never worry that they are not being taken care of because the staff they have in the NICU is phenominal but I do feel like I'm missing out on the time I used to get to spend with them. I told everyone I just wanted to fast forward to delivering and being home but now I want to fast forward to THEM being home!!! I have never been on an emotional rollercoaster quite like this one!
Below are some more recent pictures of them--How could you not want to spend every minute you had with them??? We are still waiting to be able to hold Giovanni and Jade...cotinue to pray that they gain the strength needed to continue progressing so that we can share the skin-to-skin connection with them too!
See these pictures larger on the page titled Looking Back.