Today is definitely a huge milestone in our pregnancy. We have made it to 23 weeks- the point the medical field considers the birth of the babies to be viable. Although the complications would be immense if something drastic were to happen this week we would have a chance of everything being ok... A small chance but still a milestone!
Yesterday before I even had a chance to eat breakfast several doctors came in my room and explained- again- all of the possible health concerns we could be faced with-- especially if they were to be born this week. They asked how I would want them to proceed if delivery were to happen this week and while I tried to be as polite as possible and understood it was their obligation to ask I couldn't help but get slightly annoyed. I told them I wanted them to proceed no differently than if they were born at 30 weeks- if there was a complication I wanted them to do everything in their power to save them. When I said that the doctors explained that these complications could lead to mental retardation, blindness, etc... I looked at them and said I understood all that already. Having a child with a disability is not a reason for me to order the doctors to not try to save them. They are each a part of me now- I love them like I love lexi- they are my children regardless of ability. I hope I have several weeks of being pregnant left to give them the best possible chance for a healthy delivery but you never know how things could work out.
See these pictures larger on the page titled Looking Back.